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just_muse_me: 9.6.1.
9.6.1. TEN things you did but didn't want to do
1. Sleep with Chase whilst high on Meth. I wanted to do it when I was high, not when sober. It’s different. I wanted to eat my plant when I was high, too.
2. Euthanize Ezra Powell. I know it was the right thing to do in the end, but it went against all my ethics and morals. It still haunts me some days.
3. Resign from my job with Diagnostics. Just because I had to do it doesn’t mean I truly wanted to. It was a great job, but it was time.
4. Work in the ER. I like it now and it’s a change of pace to what I’m used to, but in the start, it definitely wasn’t my first choice.
5. Watch my husband die of cancer. Yes, I knew he was terminally ill when he died, but I didn’t want to him to die. You still pray for a miracle.
6. Write Wilson’s scrips for him during the whole Tritter fiasco. Don’t get me wrong, I like Wilson and respect him as a doctor, but I didn’t want to risk my professional standing to nest his enabling of House. I didn’t know his patients. It was wrong of me to sign my name to an unknown prescription for them, no matter how much I trust Wilson’s judgement.
7. Turn Chase down when he wanted a relationship. I was scared. It was easier to turn him down than let him get any closer. He broke the rules. That should have been it. I never planned to have feelings for him. It should have been simple, but it wasn’t. I should have agreed to date him when he first asked me.
8. Treat the HIV patient after he coughed blood in my face. I was terrified, but I had a duty of care to him. I had to keep doing my job or it would have drowned me.
9. Get the results of my HIV test. Damn House for opening them before me. Three months of fear and it was washed away in blasé moment of typical House indifference. Goddamn him.
10. Backing away from House. He wasn’t interested. Full stop.
1. Sleep with Chase whilst high on Meth. I wanted to do it when I was high, not when sober. It’s different. I wanted to eat my plant when I was high, too.
2. Euthanize Ezra Powell. I know it was the right thing to do in the end, but it went against all my ethics and morals. It still haunts me some days.
3. Resign from my job with Diagnostics. Just because I had to do it doesn’t mean I truly wanted to. It was a great job, but it was time.
4. Work in the ER. I like it now and it’s a change of pace to what I’m used to, but in the start, it definitely wasn’t my first choice.
5. Watch my husband die of cancer. Yes, I knew he was terminally ill when he died, but I didn’t want to him to die. You still pray for a miracle.
6. Write Wilson’s scrips for him during the whole Tritter fiasco. Don’t get me wrong, I like Wilson and respect him as a doctor, but I didn’t want to risk my professional standing to nest his enabling of House. I didn’t know his patients. It was wrong of me to sign my name to an unknown prescription for them, no matter how much I trust Wilson’s judgement.
7. Turn Chase down when he wanted a relationship. I was scared. It was easier to turn him down than let him get any closer. He broke the rules. That should have been it. I never planned to have feelings for him. It should have been simple, but it wasn’t. I should have agreed to date him when he first asked me.
8. Treat the HIV patient after he coughed blood in my face. I was terrified, but I had a duty of care to him. I had to keep doing my job or it would have drowned me.
9. Get the results of my HIV test. Damn House for opening them before me. Three months of fear and it was washed away in blasé moment of typical House indifference. Goddamn him.
10. Backing away from House. He wasn’t interested. Full stop.